115th post!!!
lol...
rather slow...
nvm...
n i may not post so much liao...
even tough exams are over...
my mum just keeps complaining about me using the comp and everything...
wadeva crap lor...
stupid lor...
wad's rong about me using the comp???
isn't it gd that i have develop a better typing skill so tat it will be easier to find jobs when i grow up???
lol...
i think i m thinking too far...
wadeva crap...
den now my imesh is working agn...
so i am crazily downloading songs again...=.=
n i downloaded till no space...=.=
den i deleted my maple n audition software...=.=
cos i dun even play them...
as i dun have a passport...
cos my ID no. was used...
by dunno which freak...=.=
crap lor...=.=
stupid...
den my mum is now nagging n nagging...
i bet she just wan me dead...
she hates me cos she thinks i made her have diabetes...
she hates me cos i am borned with so many problems like heart condition, allergy and sensitive skin and add trouble to her life...
she hates me cos i am a spoit brat...
she hates me cos i am many suffereings to her life...
she hates me cos i help to spend the monthly income, making her don't have as much as last time to spend...
she hates me cos i am stupid and don't know how to do any housework...
she hates me cos i play the computer...
she hates me cos i have a serious attitute...
she hates me cos she suffered a lot carrying me...
she hates me cos i made her need to have an operation in order to get me out...
she hates me cos i stayed in the hospital for 8 days unlike other healthy babies who only stayed for 3 days...
she hates me cos i don't even know how to suck milk from milk bottles when i am a baby...
she hates me cos i am not the tops in class like last time...
SHE HATES ME!!!
since she want to hate me so much, i shall disappear in her life...
she said it herself today she regret giving birth to me...
tat's gd...
den i will die in front of her eyes...
how i wish i can just die off from tis earth...
i lived for the sake of i am her onli child...
cos lyk she used to sae, if i ever die, she will have nth left...
since she hate me so much, she wun care even if i die...
IN FRONT OF HER EYES
stupid...
if i am not an onli child, i wun care about how she feels n would have died already...
stupid...
why din my two other siblings get gave birth???
why were they miscarriged???
and i'm not?!
stupid...
I HATE MYSELF
THE WHOLE WORLD HATES ME
I SHOULD NOT EXIST ON THIS EARTH
I SHOULD JUST BE NOTHING
I HAD ENOUGH OF THIS WORLD
I WANT TO LEAVE IT
FOREVER
i shan't be EMO...
BYE

I sign off hating myself more and more,
Qiao Ru =D (YES!!! I am going to DIE!!! xD)